Picking up you cross? What?! Simply put, have you let go of choosing your own way and embraced God’s? 

And calling the crowd to him with his disciples, he said to them, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel’s will save it.
Mark 8 ESV

http://bible.com/59/mrk.8.34-35.ESV